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19 January 2013 - 2:51 p.m. dear diary, the tears came that night, when the reality and magnitude of what happened set in. i was sad for our loss. and i was sad for what that loss might mean. will i be able to get pregnant again? if i do, will the same thing happened? will i ever be able to bring another healthy baby to term? in the last 48 hours i've been to the other side of the spectrum and back. and the truth is, i want to have another baby. all my fears. all my doubts. all my questions. i need to silence them so i don't detour from what i want. i know it's not all in my control though. please god, please, let this be for me. love, cali |
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you read these? have i lost you, diary? oh, and it's a boy. old mom break-up you can't win if you don't play |