21 October 2013 - 10:53 a.m.

dear diary,

the break-up happened on friday.

and since then, i've felt so sad. it was inevitable. when you've been together for six years and the relationship has gone stagnant, there are two choices:

try harder or walk.

and he decided to walk.

i just feel so crushed for my sister. most of her friends have gotten married and moved to the suburbs. she's 43. single and childless. the eternal single girl...woman...mid-aged woman.

not only is she nursing a broken heart, she's in a panic about her life...or should i say lifestyle, which is teetering on the unknown. now that her and her live-in boyfriend are through, where will she live? how will she live?

unfortunately, my sister is terrible with money, and thinking beyond today. quite frankly, she doesn't have a pot to piss in.

i feel sad for her. and sorry for her. and worried about her. not just for her immediate future, but also for the long-term.

she is such a good-hearted person. she wasted six years - the last years of any hope of having a child (if she decided she wanted one) - on this emotionally unavailable boy.

she deserves more - a man who will show her love and stability and commitment.

i told her she will be happy again. i know she will. but the trauma of a break-up at any age - especially at an age when you are beyond ready to secure "happily ever after" - is just awful.

i'm not usually the praying type, but i will pray for my sister to get through this and heal and find love again. a true love that will be good for her and that will last.

love,

cali

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