27 February 2009 - 2:52 p.m.

dear diary,

there's really not much to say.

it's been seven weeks since i got laid off. during this time, i've submitted my resume for a total of one jobs, which quickly thereafter appeared to be a dead-end. however, today i received word that the opportunity may still exist. so, we shall see....

my lack of motivation is mind-numbing. i've accomplished virtually nothing during my time off. i'm afraid the boyfriend is losing respect for me.

i'm losing respect for myself...

sometimes i wonder if my laziness is due to depression, or if there is something more physical going on, like i have cancer or something.

since i was a kid, when i found out cancer was this terrible disease that sucks the life out of you - literally - i've been convinced that i would get it. i'm still convinced.

i'm morbid.

and i think i need a nap. the boyfriend is coming home early. i want to feel not-so-tired when he arrives.

blah...

cali

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