24 June 2008 - 1:09 p.m.

dear diary,

vacation was just ok. jamaica is really no better than hawaii. its just much further away.

traveling was hell. i mean, pure torture. american airlines sucks balls, and i am still battling with them to reclaim air miles for an upgrade i did not get to use. long story, but it involves missing our connecting flight, getting stuck in miami for the night in a shitty holiday inn with $10 meal vouchers...and nothing on the hotel diner menu was $10!

i've traveled all over the world - all over - to the far east, the depths of africa, europe two handfuls of times - and never before did i have such a bad travel experience!

if i ever get over this horrible experience, the only tropical vacation - or any vacation for that matter - i'll ever go on again will be any place that takes only one, non-stop flight.

there was no marriage proposal, which was ok, because that would just make for a shitty story. but i know one is coming... and while i am not bursting at the seams, feeling like "oh my god, i have to get married," i feel like things are just as they are supposed to be. and that is a good, peaceful, content feeling.

last weekend, boyfriend had a work colleague/friend in town, so we showed her around the coast. we stopped into a popular restaurant for lunch. it had been a place i'd been avoiding/curious about/haunted by for many, many years. it was the restaurant my gay-ex brought the girl-he-dumped-me-for-and-eventually-married to on their first date. i only know this because a friend of mine ran into them on that date, and it was awkward to say the least. i got all the details a day later, when she called to report the run-in to me.

for so many years, i was bothered by this place. being there on sunday, i felt a sense of closure. funny how some things just need to be put to rest, even though so much time has gone by.

i can rest easy knowing that his idea of a classy first date was that restaurant. it was really nothing special. just like gay-ex and his now-wife. nothing special ...

i'm feeling very restless about my career...again. i just have this nagging feeling that i am barking up the wrong tree.

i need a sign, any sign...or maybe just a good career counselor...to set me on a better track.

time keeps marching on...and my job bores me to tears...

some things never change.

cali

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