07 July 2009 - 8:40 p.m.

dear diary,

nearly two months ago, on may 16th, i took that pregnancy test to confirm my suspicions (and, quite frankly, my greatest fear).

on may 16th, i stressed about being unwed and unemployed with an unplanned pregnancy. more than anything, i worried about the shame i would bring to my parents.

nearly two months later, and i am engaged to wed, employed (beginning next week), and, of course, still find myself with an unplanned pregnancy. clearly, tackling two of the three "strikes" against me would ease the shame i might bring my parents, right?

we visited my parents this weekend. and i just couldn't do it. i didn't tell them about button.

boyfriend says it's ok to wait a while longer. wait until after the next ultrasound he tells me. that way i can tell them they are going to have a granddaughter or grandson.

apparently, the last 20 years has made no impact on me.

i still feel like an insecure 16 year old, seeking my parents approval and acceptance.

...sigh...

cali

previous - next

have you read these?

the wonderful world of in-laws
11 August 2009

oh joy!
08 August 2009

15 years from now, not opening the legs will be a good thing
26 July 2009

my prediction is sugar and spice
23 July 2009

girl on film
10 July 2009