27 September 2007 - 11:51 p.m.

dear diary,

there's that saying "good girls keep diaries, bad girls don't have time."

i haven't been a bad girl, per say, just busy. and, at times, i feel like i am juggling all the insignificant men in my life. somehow i have managed to make a number of male "friends." actually, they are friends by choice...i think most of them find me attractive. but i am just not impressed. i do like the attention though, so will continue to play the silly boy/girl games.

but really, where the fuck is the right one?

one week from now i will be on an airplane to london. 10 days in europe. i can't wait. maybe he is there.

i will visit my friend in london, and family in central europe, and meet my german friend (a guy) in italy for three days in tuscany. we've been emailing back and forth about our trip and it all sounds so incredibly romantic...i just don't know if it will be romantic. this guy has had a crush on me for years. and i like him though i don't feel he is "the one." but me and him, driving through tuscany, staying at his stepmom's house for two nights. two nights together alone in a house in tuscany, drinking lots and lots of red wine...something is bound to happen, right?

in my mom's mind, the guy is going to rape me or kill me. she called me yesterday demanding to know everything about this guy - my friend. it was cute. i suppose i will always be my mother's daughter.

anyway, it was one hell of a day. tomorrow will be another hell of a day. this weekend will be a hell of a weekend. i need to shop for my trip. i refuse to spend another vacation in europe looking frumpy.

this lass needs to get some style.

cali

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